Have you ever felt that you are fighting a loosing battle and all you ever wanted was to shut up and sit down and hoist that white flag?.. I felt that today and my Flag aint rising anytime soon..
It all started when i met all the seniors in the club to share with them an idea that i have to hopefully help make things a better in the ABE club. However we ended up coming to a conclusion that we need to let them float by themselves....
I am tired of listening to phrases such as "FROM MY SIDE" or "WE HAVE BEEN IN MAIN COME FOR 2 YEARS"..what is the point?..if everyone is as egoistic as this than how can we move?.. i thank all of those who have served under me and under Farhan but dont you see that as for some of you, You were fortunate to have Farhan guide you through everything?. He was so experienced in this because he 2 had his fare share of ups and downs. Unlike you guys i wans't in Main com, MC when i was a year one?. all i did was to be a campchief?.. and from there i was given the responsibility of a man whom i love and respect.. I took the role as President gladly, whole heartedly so that i may somehow lead the club into a direction away from the abyss. I was just a campchief, unlike most of you of having 2 years of experience... i was no less fresh than the freshies in the MC?.
All i needed was guidance, but that guidance was soon seen as weakness?..INstead of sharing?.. you critizise my leadership, question my every order and fail to do what i insist of doing?.. So what am i?.. AM i not a figurehead in a sense?..
I felt that the meeting i had was just as saddening as the fact as trying to teach dogs new tricks... even old dogs could learn new tricks... so what if you have served 2 years?.so what if you ave taken in more shitt than others, so what if you think that your event an so well?.. So what if you do not inpart your enthusiasm and knowledge to others..
YES yOU are all KNOWLEDGABLE... but saddly you are not wise....
As i lay silent, as tears rolled down my eyes i remembered the words i promised Farhan, " I will take care of what you have left me" he left me with a responsibility that i have to fulfill and tat responsibility is what i have to carry out till the day when my work is done then id do the same as how he has done 2 me...
What i am saddened is that if we keep comparing ourselves with them the young ones they and us will never learn.. INstead bridge the gap...and fix the problem, yes i know that most of you are sick and tired but when you were young, when you were in school when u didnt understand a question and u asked ur teacher, did she ever say...to YOU..." Are you that stupid?.. WHY CANT YOU GET IT"//?...
some people are slow learners and the reason why they feel outcasted is because you guys keep thingking highly of yourselves.... be humble.... and you will go far my dear friends...
Personally i do not care if people hate me?. i do not have to answer to anyone the reason why i am staying nor the reason why i care so much...It is because i am ME... and i will not abandon my ship.. This is my Ship and i am the helmsmen.. and i will do all my BEST to steer us into the light rather than leaving my men left floating in the deep waters...
This is me... and if you think you have done and seen much in the world well than i too have my moments.. when i was in secondary school i have never failed to get top student for the cohort and level..each year for 5 years i was awarded, I was class rep for 3 out of 5 years, i was the Training INcharge for my CCA, I planned The ONLY passing OUT parade for my batch and i was Parade commander of my Guard of Honour contingent, i was awarded an all rounder student, i was a student councillor, i was also in the NOrthwest CDC Young leaders committee councillor, I was BEST CADET in MY UNIT for that year... i was the 1st ever 6 time dinstinction student in my level and year in my secondary school, i was also a SINGA GOLD recepient..
Soo when you say" Abu its now your turn to show us that you can lead the club and deserve our trust to be president" ID say to you look at the mirror and look at yourself.
I do not have to prove to anyone that i can do it. ALL i have to do is to prove to myself and to those who cares and godwillingly we will make this year a year to remember..
To my juniors, cheerish these times that you have, trully i have sacrificed alot for you... all of us,, please... carry the beacon with you and be that Guiding light that shines....
No matter how tired you are, Rest if you must, but NEVER give UP...
Perserverance, focuss and determination..will get you to where you are...
" The greatest courage on Earth is to bear defeat without losing Heart"
Remember that..for one day we are all accountable for our actions...
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